endo_angel (endo_angel) wrote in endosurvivors,
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Is this it?

Is it truly possible? My friend today just got engaged, she has cervical and uterine cancer and is missing 25% of her cervix. Yes I'm happy, but I just can't get over the fact that they've only been together a month or two...is this her desperate way to get kids before her radical hysterectomy? I think it's too soon for this, for her. Her past isn't that great and ahe falls way too fast.

And then look at myself and my boyfriend, we are moving right along pace, almost 10 months together and still growing stronger each day. We are moving in together in a week into an awesome apartment and starting our life together...dog and all(she is the cutest puggle ever!!!)

But then I look at just me, it seems my health is spiraling downward. First my endometriosis, then my fybromyalgia, and now I'm showing symptoms of lupus! I just cannot win! And then I think about down the road, that if I do have lupus what is my life going to be like. Am I going o bed bound with my boyfriend waiting on me hand and foot? Am I still going to be able to work? Will I pass this on to any future children? Will my boyfriend or any man want to be with me? It's just so overwhelming I just am a horrible mess, crying all the time. How much more can I take?

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